Saturday, August 16, 2014

Movie Night

When I was called as Primary President, I imagined it would be full of hiccups and that it wouldn't be an easy calling, but in all honesty, I had no idea how time consuming and emotionally taxing it could be.  I have only been in for 3 months now, and some days I wonder if I can make it a year, let alone three years (which is how long the previous presidency was in)!  I am so blessed with so many resources at my fingertips. Of course there is all of the wonderful training videos and literature on, which can be a little daunting with the amount of things there.  Also, I have a sister and sister in law who are both currently primary presidents.  Both my mother and mother in law were primary presidents two years ago, and one of my best friends is currently a counselor in her primary presidency.  I have all my bases covered and the support has been phenomenal and much needed and appreciated. As well as my Stake primary presidency.

For a little more than a week, I have been putting all of my spare time (and even some that wasn't spare) into this calling.  Tonight, I am emotionally exhausted.  There have been some problems that have arrisen that have needed my full attention in trying to work them out.  One was a very simple solution that I am very excited to try out.  The other, well, I have a feeling a solution will be a long time in coming, but through this opportunity, I will have lots of time to grow and learn and stretch and become more than I ever thought I could be.  I have to remind myself of that every day, though.  And I am going to be real here, just for a minute.  I have been trying to find a solution to this problem, and through my stress, seem to have developed hives.  It is all really quite fascinating to me.  The fact that this seems to be the most amount of stress my body has ever dealt with, and the way that it deals with it is by breaking out in hives (which sort of causes more stress, so you would think that it would be smarter than to do something so counter-productive). I am looking forward to being able to let go of some things and unwind a bit so these darn hives can go away. Now that I have that out, though, I can go back to being positive.

I feel bad, because I haven't been doing fun things with the kids.  We had Mimi last week, so we weren't really able to go out and do a lot.  And then this week has been 100% primary, which means this next week we are going to have to party it up! I anticipate park visits, sno-cones, and of course a visit to the mountains. Because that just makes me happy, and really, I could use a little break.

Today I told the kids that if they could get their jobs done, we would have a pizza/movie party.  Ten minutes after that announcement, they were both completely conked out on their beds.  I had to laugh.  Last night they had a sleep over at their grandparent's house, which of course, meant lots of playing and no time for sleep.  As all sleepovers should go!  While watching Faye sleep, it struck me how little she really is.  When she is awake, she is a force to be reckoned with.  She is a whirlwind of activity and nothing slows her down. She talks a mile a minute and craves a lot of attention.  I don't often get to see her lying still, so when I saw her sleeping today, it surprised me and really helped to put her energy into perspective a bit.

Jeffrey and I got most of the cleaning done while they were sleeping, and they were very happy to hear that we would indeed be having a pizza/movie night.  Muppet's Most Wanted, in fact.  Because guys, Ricky Gervais and Tina Fey! And Muppets!  You can't go wrong there, that is for sure.  It was wonderful, all of us snuggled up on the luv sac and futon, Beth walking in circles and playing with all the books and toys.  I was happy she wasn't interested in the TV, because I try to adhere to the rule of no TV before the age of 2.  It just makes it hard when we have a family movie party.  It seemed to work out great tonight, though.

Well, it is late and no amount of procrastinating will make tomorrow any better.  Wish me luck!


*Jess* said...

I think my mom felt the same exact way when she was Primary President! Just remember that your family comes first, before church callings :) Lean on your counselors to help disperse the work. You've got this!

Amy said...

Thank you, Jess! I sometimes get so overwhelmed, but after completing Sharing Time today (which was a blast!) I feel a lot better. I just need to take things one day at a time, I guess.