Give Me A Break

Saturday was amazing.  Jeffrey and the kiddos went to Bear Lake for a family vacation.  Unfortunately, I was not able to go.

As I watched them drive away, I got a little excited.  For the first time in nearly five years, I had a chance to rediscover myself.  I had a chance to be just me.  Not Mommy me, not wife me, just Amy!

The options of what to do were endless, but fortunately, I had my day all planned out.  My dear friend Lisa was braving a two hour drive with no A/C so we could finally meet in real life.

I love her even more now that I have met her.  She is wonderful!  While talking with her, I learned we have a connection.  She knows my oldest sister, and used to babysit my nieces!  They are 19 and 17 now, so that was a very long time ago.  But my niece and her little brother are best friends.  It made me happy and laugh.  It truly is a small world!

When she got down, she needed to feed her baby (Jeffrey, if you are reading this, I want one).  He was so cute, and all smiles and calm and made me so baby hungry!  My goodness, I just wanted to play with him and squosh his cheeks.  Adorable, I tell you.  We decided to take an hour drive to visit our friend Evelyn who was not there.  But it was fun to spend the time together.  I was a little worried before meeting her about awkward pauses and nothing to talk about, but Lisa and I must have been friends in another life.  We are already trying to make plans for our next visit!

I have to say, I am so grateful for technology and the wonderful friendships I have made over the past few years.  It is magical.

Lisa went home, and I had all intentions of going to bed early.  But somehow, that didn't happen.

Sooner than expected midnight rolled around.  I sat on my bed, doing some last minute getting ready for sleep.  Er, watching some very creepy Doctor Who.  The perfect thing to do while home alone, right?  As I was drifting between the land of David Tennant's dimple, and sleep, I heard a gentle snoring.  Instinctually, I leaned in to my pillow, and reached out, feeling for a little diapered bum.  When I felt nothing, I jerked awake.  It was the dog snoring on the floor, not my little Faye.  I sighed, and readjusted my attention to the dimple, but my mind would not focus.  I marveled at how fortunate I am.

My day was glorious.  It was restful, and stress free, and happy.  But at the end of the day, I did miss my family.  Knowing they would be home the next day gave me such security.  I thought of the difference for people who have their families torn away from them by death, or other circumstances beyond their control.  I said a little prayer for the safety of my family.  I would much rather have them with me with a little break once in a while, then to have all the free time in the world, and now little ones to tickle, and no Jeffrey to snuggle into at night.

Having said that, I have also come to the conclusion that breaks are necessary for the sanity and mothering of mothers.  At least twice a year.  I have noticed a huge difference in the way I act and react to my family.  I am much more patient and calm and happy.

I think this weekend was a success!

Minus the fact Jeffrey took the camera with him.  :)


Unknown said…
That sounds like a wonderful break! So glad you got to take a well deserved break!
Susan Anderson said…
You are so right about mommy breaks. They make ALL the difference!

Emmy said…
Good for you! And yes, we all really do need breaks. I always stay up way too late when Eric is gone, mostly because I want to make sure I am totally tired before getting in bed or I will just lie there awake listening to scary noises :)
Shannon said…
I'm so glad you had some AMY time! It can make all the difference :) Next time you have some Amy time, call me and I will arrange for some SHANNON time and we'll have an AMY + SHANNON night! :)

(since we do live so close!)

Myya said…
I wanna come play with you ladies! I read on Lisa's facebook that she was going to visit her friend Amy. I didn't put two & two together to think she was visiting you. How fun! AND you guys are close to Evelyn too? Lucky! :)
I AGREE! Mommy time is much needed for sanity. Something I haven't had in a while. seems like you needed it to. Isn't it funny how we somehow get the things we need to keep us going?
So glad you had a good time. I don't know who I would be without being me mommy and me wifey. It'd be nice to find out. I'm sure I'd be a lot more fun!
Technology is good to a point. Nothing quite beats the real thing.

Glad for your you time. (and jealous, too!)

Lourie said…
Wow! That is awesome! YOu are one lucky girl.
Lisa said…
I'm so sorry that I didn't get the pictures up yet. You are definitely beautiful! And I had a BLAST getting to know you too!!! WE definitely were friends in another life. I can't wait to see you again... but for now my life is filled with squeezing in the last possible moments of summer before I send my 2 big kids off to school!!! CRAZY! Thank you thank you thank you for letting me crash you! I needed the break so much!

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