Monday, August 23, 2010

The Great Delima

Quite honestly, I have been suffering from some serious writer's block.  For such a long time.  Since around February, I think.  I stare at the computer screen for such a long time, trying to put my thoughts into words.  Nothing comes.

I have been having some serious debates lately about even continuing this blog.  Mainly because of a documentary I saw.  It was about the dumbing down of our society due to so much technology.  And the lost art of reading and writing.

I want to spend more time with the little ones, I want to be able to disconnect myself from the net and live a more wholesome family centered life.  I feel I don't spend enough time focusing on teaching.

But then if I disconnect myself, I will be cutting myself off from the main stress relief in my life.

But then again my children need me.

And the house needs to be cleaner.  And not blogging would certainly help with the clean house, more time with the kids.

Its all about the distractions we allow into our lives.

And then again, friendship is important.  I crave the friendships I have made from blogging.

I think we are at a stale mate.  Possibly the writer's block could be a sign?

At any rate, no decisions have been made as of yet, but I am praying I will be able to write again.

On a happier note, I have a decorated kitchen for the first time.  Who would have thought that decorating a kitchen could cause so much happiness!  I figure, I spend the majority of my day in there anyway, I might as well make it pretty.

Wouldn't that make you happy too?


Michelle @Flying Giggles said...

Your kitchen looks fabulous!

I get the same feeling from time to time. I think it is important to keep a healthy balance. When I spend a lot of time on my blog, I that feeling starts to creep back in. And I have been spending a lot of time the past few days transferring from blogger to wordpress. Tonight I spent hours trying to get my Google Friend Connect to update again. No luck. Yes, sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel, but I know I will miss all the wonderful people I have met through my blog!

Noodle said...

Yup I agree balance is key... I some times strugle with this balance as well...

Susan Anderson said...

The kitchen looks great!

As for the blogging, I think every mom needs to take some time to herself to fill her whatever form that takes. Of course, "me time" has to be balanced against children's needs, but it's important to remember that a happy mom is one of those needs!

Usually, when I am having a difficult time writing, it's because I am not finding that time to fill my cup, which saps my creative juices. That happened frequently when my children were small.

You're a good mom, and children are remarkably resilient. It's okay to take a little time for yourself!


Lara Neves said...

Yes! It would make me very happy. (Says she who has been on a home improvement bender...)

I'm glad you turned comments back on. :)

Gina said...

I struggle with this too. My husband told me the other day that I have a relationship with my blogging community too. At first, I felt guilty and then I realized he's right and it's so therapeutic to me. I know when Baby #2 is born, it will really be a struggle!

Chantel said...

I love it! It looks so good.

Here's my justification for blogging... I think of it more as a journal or a scrapbook, that's why I write daily and print it into a book so I actually do have a scrapbook of what we're doing. I'm glad I do or I'd pretty much have no written documentation of Avy's life because I suck at scrapbooking!!!

Francisca and Chris said...

I would be brokenhearted if you stopped blogging b/c this is the way it seems that you and I keep in touch and you are one person I don't want to lose touch with! I would miss you!

For me I blog only at night or when the kids are napping. This helps alleviate the Mom guilt. I think for us the blog is special. It is a journal of our lives that I know my children will look back on. It is my "online" journal :)

Emmy said...

I have felt a bit like blogging is pulling teeth lately. But like you said I enjoy the connections and outlet. Just blog as you want, don't feel pressure to do it so many days. I think you will be glad to have it as your blog really is a journal of your life

Veronica said...

I hear you on the writers block. On the questions of spending enough time with family versus not. Technology being a major time suck.

And then feeling like it is such a huge outlet to meet new people, gain new ideas and grow. That I don't just want to give it up.

Balance, but what does that look like?

Anyway, the kitchen looks great!!

Trish said...

I am so enthusiastic that you are allowing comments again! I enjoy sending my love to you via commenting! I enjoy your kitchen pictures, so clean and tidy! I enjoy your blogging, and enjoy hearing about how much you enjoy motherhood. I think others do as well. Many others. Maybe the question for you is how often rather than yes or no to blogging. Maybe make some agreements with yourself and your family about when you choose to be fully present with them (playing, laughing, cooking, etc) and when you choose to blog.
Sometimes it is tricky to figure out, but you know in your heart the right choice! Best wishes!
Love Trish