These words have been coming to my mind a lot lately. I feel as if I am Jim Nightshade on the Carousel of Age watching as life is spinning faster and faster around me. My kids are growing up right in front of my eyes. I feel like I am missing the precious moments with them. It seemed Keith was a baby for a lot longer than Faye has been. She is already growing up so fast. I cannot believe how quickly she is changing and growing.
I have been getting stressed out. I have been focusing on so many things at once, I haven't had time to really focus on anything. As such, the rush factor and the stress factor have been prevalent in my mind.
And then during one particularly harrowing day, I had a thought come to mind.
Joy in the Journey.
I realized I am getting too frustrated and stressed over scribbles on the wall and spills under the table. Dirt in the mouth, and food in the hair. I am not enjoying it enough.
So I have deliberately been focusing on enjoying every second.
And then another thought came to mind. "Stop Rushing."
I am not rushing for my little darlings to grow up, but I do rush for the end of the day when they are happily tucked in bed and dreaming their sweet innocent dreams. Then I can have time to breathe. Then I can have time to see my husband. Then I can have time to regroup my strength and thoughts to start it all again the next day.
And then I remember the source of my greatest joy and happiness. They are the reason I smile and laugh every day. I am always happy when I go to bed at night, happy because I have them.
And so, I am doing my best to enjoy every second. Make each moment count, and love it.
I am making myself a sign that says Joy in the Journey. I am going to hang it up in my room where I can be reminded every morning to take a deep breath and find ways to not stress, but ways to enjoy every little second.