Thursday, August 5, 2010

Guilt Rehab


To make up for all the guilt I have been feeling about abandoning my children, I decided to make it up to them today.  I got as much cleaning done as I could this morning, but when Faye went down for her nap, Keithy and I cuddled on his saucer chair and read.  We read for Faye's entire nap.  I miss reading to him like that.  I am going to make it a priority again.

When Faye woke up, we wandered next door and invited our neighbors out to play.   We got out the pool and all the kids had so much fun splashing around.  It made my heart smile.  I was actually surprised how much Faye liked it.  Especially since the sky was overcast and the wind was blowing.  I thought they would be cold, but then I forgot that kids are impervious to temperature.

After the fun pool the kids went to bed and I got back to cleaning.  They slept late, which they sorely needed.  And then we shoved them back to their Grandmother as we hurried to the house to work again.

I am having painters remorse.  I don't love the color of the wall right now.  It reminds me of a preschool.  As I looked in the window at it, I thought it just needs some brightly colored fish, and octopus and some seaweed painted on and it would be perfect for preschoolers.  Sigh.  But I think I will like it once the whole room is done, and all the cupboards are painted.  I got three of them painted and ready to go today.  I forgot about the ones that are already hanging.  Three down, four more to go.  And I decided to hold off on the stain.  It just looks dirty.  I want the cupboards to look antiquated but not dirty, so we are just going to leave them looking new.  But we are making steady progress.  Slow, but steady.  And I am excited for the change.  I only wish I were the one living there so I could pick out cute curtains, and rugs and dishtowels.  But I am certain the girls will make it beautiful.

Amid all the chaos that I call life, the kids are wonderful and really give me the smiles I need.  As we were driving them to their grandparent's house, Keith made Faye laugh the whole way there.  It was such a sweet and elevating car ride.  I do have wonderful kids.  Faye is getting her top teeth in, and threatening to walk.  I will take a video and post it *gasp- the first home video on my blog.*  Take bets and send out a prize.  Great idea, I think.  Of course, I can't claim it as my own.  A friend of mine did that on her blog a few years ago.  But since I have a near walking child, the tradition can live on.

And hopefully the wall painting will be finished tomorrow.  I say tomorrow because I have not yet gone to sleep.  Technically it is tomorrow, but I just got home from painting and so it doesn't count yet.  2:00 am is really an ugly time to be going to bed.  But there is not a whole lot that can be done about it, so there you have it.

7 comments:

Gina said...

You should post a pic of your wall when it's all finished. I bet it's really pretty!

Sue said...

The color always looks different once you get stuff in the room. I bet it will be fine!

=)

Sue said...

The wall color always looks different once you get the rest of the stuff in a room. I bet it will be fine!

=)

Chris and Francisca Hakes said...

I'm glad comments are back! I've missed communicating w/ya.

I am the worse example of "Walking Mom Guilt". Sometimes I just have to get something done for work when my critters just want to play w/me! It breaks my heart :( But I am learning that kids are resiliant. They know I'm there for them always and that is what matters :)

You Amy, are an AMAZING mom and I know Keith & Faye know it! I'm glad this is almost done, you have a new house to rent, and life will get much happier and easier shortly! Oh and GL w/the job :)

Noodle said...

Hey I was up till 3am and it had nothing to do with home improvment just kids tag teaming me and playing lets make mommy get no sleep game (Ithink its there favorite!!!) I love how worn out kids get when they play outside...

Emmy said...

Reading like that is truly wonderful. We went to the library for The first time this summer then spent the afternoon reading, I loved it.

2:00 AM does suck. It will all be done soon and you are an amazing mom

Em said...

Painter's remorse!? HHahahaaa love it!