Friday, March 26, 2010

Flashing the Headlights

I love breastfeeding.

I guess it is because Keith wouldn't breastfeed.  I felt like a failure with him.  I felt like I was a horrible mother.  I wasn't good enough to be able to give him my milk, I had to rely on formula for the life of my child.  Every time I saw a mother breastfeeding her child I felt so sad.

Now in his defense, they gave him a bottle in the NICU before they gave me a chance to feed him.  They then told me giving him formula would help get him out of the NICU faster so I consented.  He was also tounge tied which inhibited his suck reflex.  I guess everything was against me with him.

I tried to breast feed, I really did.  I tried so hard.  For six months.  I went to so many La Leche League consultants.  I read so many books.  I spent so many hours crying out of frustration and self loathing.  Why couldn't I even feed my own son?  It was not a fun road.

That is part of the reason I did things so differently with Faye.  I desperately wanted to breast feed her.

And she is doing great!

But this is the part where I have to send out a formal apology to my family.

While I was visiting with my family, I hid Faye under a blanket to feed her.  And then the show began. 

There was a comfortable buzz of conversation going on around me.  I was watching and listening, but at that point not taking an active part in the conversation.  Faye was doing great with her dinner.  But then things went south.  She reached up, grabbed the blanket, and yanked it down.  With my ninja skills, I grabbed it up again, but it was too late.  The headlights had been flashed.  The milk machines were unveiled.  I don't think anyone saw, but that was about the time my brother in law left the room.  So, for anyone who got more than they bargained for that night, I submit my apology, and am looking around for a hooter hider {is that really what they are called?}.  Either I am going to make one, or buy one, but I will have one very soon.

Because that, my friends, is the reward of breastfeeding a very curious baby.

18 comments:

Sue said...

Those hooter hiders are pretty nifty. My niece has one, and she loves it!

=)

Tawni said...

Haha that's a great story. I have a nursing cover and they're great.

Emmy said...

Oh I have done that too. But yes get a hooter hider, they are the best! My sister-in-law made me one, and I got one from an on-line site not that that long for a screaming good deal.

You should contact someone with an etsy shop and say you would love to review their product for them :)

Chantel said...

I've got a couple you can borrow if you'd like. I'm not using them at the moment. I would recommend getting one that has a back on it, if not the kids pull it anyway and you're always sort of visible out the side. Anyhow, I really don't mind if you borrow mine. Atleast they'd give you an idea of what you like before you order.

Savvy Coupon Mommy said...

Hi :-)
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I had a hooter hider that tied around the back....those are the best! ( and they come in all kinds of fun prints :-)
Have a great weekend!
~Sarah

Cherie said...

I don't know where to get one but I saw one for the first time the other night at a church auction - Pretty cool!
Congrats on your breastfeeding - it can be so hard with some kids. It is nice when you get one who actually enjoys it.

Funny story! Poor BIL - ha ha!

purseblogger said...

Following from Friday Follow! Cute blog. :)

Laura said...

I love breastfeeding too!! I cried a lot last week when my 19 month (yes 19, seriously get over it Laura) stopped nursing. It is such a great gift to them and you rock for trying so hard with your first! YES, get a hotter hider...I had a couple and loved them! Bonus: no ninja skills required. :)

Krissy said...

I wish I could have breastfed, but i couldn't. :( I feel like I was missing out.

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Natasha said...

It seriously isn't called that! I hope a woman didn't come up with that one, oi =)

Life Is A SandCastle said...

My cousin's baby flashed her too.

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*Jess* said...

I'm so thrilled nursing is going great for you this time around :) Don't beat yourself up about your first child. Sometimes the obstacles are too big to overcome!

Em said...

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! that story is hilarious.

seriously, breastfeeding is hard. did you read my post "enough" a couple of weeks ago? it is such a relief to not have to worry about milk supply this time and max is a great little nurser. my flow is so fast and there is so much that she gets terrible stomach cramps. they are worse in the night b/c the let down is so much faster. the lac couns told me to pump after night feedings to help and my freezer is filling up fast. really wanting to sell it.

my MIL makes really cute hooter hiders. she lives in highland so you could pick it up if you wanted, but she also mails them. she made mine for makenzie this time and i adore the fabric she picked. her signature mark is that she does the strap in a different fabric. they have pockets on the inside for nursing pads, lansinoh, whatever and velcro for the strap so you don't have to mess with the slip buckles. super wide around the sides. i think they are $30?? not sure. let me know if you're interested and i'll get the details.

JaNae said...

It's a challenge to breast feed in public, especially with a curious, wiggly baby!

Go to uddercovers.com and type in "1free" for the promotional code and you only pay for shipping ($9.95). I got one and it works pretty well, and it's really cute too!

Noodle said...

I got a uddercover with that free code I like it It's light weight and not to warm... I love nursing my baby's... I'm proud of it (does that sound strange???) I'm proud of you for trying again with Faye... I know mamy a mom that trys with the frist and if it don't work they give up on the rest.... Ally is a great nurser and I'm so glad it the best thing for them... Both my kids have flashed people for me... My brother got totaly grossed out by it... But he got over it quickly... We laugh at it now =)

ConfessionsofaPTOMom said...

My third nursed for over a year, and it was very healing since my second didn't nurse. I understand completely!

Catmull's said...

Oh Amy. don't feel like a failure with Keith. he's happy, and healthy. Could you really ask for more? I didn't breastfeed My little girl and don't plan on it with this one. It's just one choice of millions we have to make as mothers.

About that nursing cover... Here's a deal I see often. It just posted on one of the saving money blogs i follow this morning. So the code should work for you. Good luck!

Just go to uddercovers.com to purchase your UdderCovers Nursing Cover. Then, enter in code babiesonline. You will get the $32 Nursing Cover for free! You will just have to pay for shipping...which I believe it is around $9.00

No more flashing people. :)

Jenny said...

Oh My Goodness! I so feel you on this one! I've nursed three so you can bet this has happened to me too. I actually make nursing covers... have you found one you like?

So glad you rediscovered my blog! Welcome back! I'll be following you!