Monday, November 30, 2009

Failure

Can I be honest? I feel like a big fat failure today. I got n.o.t.h.i.n.g done. Nada. I visited with some friends for a bit (a long bit), friends I haven't spoken with for a while. Keith got a lot of movies watched, and the two of us ate a lot of chocolate chips and cheese sticks. Faye wanted to eat all. day. long. so she got held most of the day...

But the house. Oh my poor house! I honestly cannot remember the last time it was clean. After having a race car toddler bed in the living room for three weeks, we finally got it switched out with his other toddler bed which was on loan. Now our bed is in the living room waiting to be switched out witth the futon we have been using... long story, don't ask... buut we can't find the right tool to disassemble the futon, so there may be a large bed propped up in the living room for some time. There is no excuse for the kitchen. I just got busy with other things. Keith's room is full of Faye clothes, and needs to be rearranged to fit his bed so it doesn't block any vents. Faye's clothes have been dominating the laundry for some time now so the rest of ours is backed up...

And while all of this is hanging over my head... I ignore it because I don't want to confront it. I can't pull out the Christmas decor until the house is clean, yet I mope because I haven't gotten into the Christmas Spirit yet...

And so, today I feel like junk because I was so un'productive. But tomorrow? Things will be different! I am going to bed now so I can get up early and tackle my messy demons and invite Christmas to spend a couple of weeks at our house.

And since I made that announcement, I have to do it.



P.S. I just read Stephanie's post at Diapers and Divinity and it was the equavilent of eating a large piping hot piece of humble pie. Such inspiration, and exactly what I needed to hear today to put things into perspective
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